Ok, ok, I guess I'll post
Even though I have nothing to say.
It's been a fairly dull week around here. I've been sick, Zach got a new 'big boy' bed, and, um, Clark's out of town for a few days. I was talking to Stine just yesterday (I think it was yesterday, the days just seem to be running together lately) about how we were both uninspired to post about the mundane daily lives we've been living lately, but here I am, doing just that.
The only thing of any interest going on is that, in spite of being sick, I've been doing shitloads of yoga. I did 4 hours Saturday, 3 hours Monday and an hour (at home!) yesterday. Yeah, shitloads. I think I've crossed over into a place where doing MORE yoga is easier than doing LESS. I felt better after my second class in a row Monday than I'd felt in days. Suprising, but pleasantly so. My knee, however, is not thrilled. It's not swelling, or doing anything overt that would suggest injury, but it is consistently cranky. I'm starting to suspect an old injury in there, and am wondering if this is just something I'm going to have to live with, or if there is anything I can do to improve it. Getting old sucks ass.
You know, I thought with the new year, and starting this yoga teacher training thingy, that I was heading out of the hermit phase I've been in for the last year, but it seems to be not happening as much as I'd hoped. Maybe it's just the being sick thing, but (aside from actually being in the yoga studio) I mostly want to be left alone. I'm still enjoying reading about what everyone is doing, but not inspired to comment, and if you're my friend, and you DON'T have a blog, well, I have no idea what's going on with those people, and even though I DO care, I apparently don't care enough to reach out and connect with anyone.
I'm struggling with inertia I think. I can't seem to get up the momentum to do much of anything, and I don't even have the usual culprit to blame for it. My amotivational syndrome is all me right now. It's frustrating, because I would really like to do more. I'd like for my house to not be such a cluttered mess, and I'd like to get out more with my kids, and cook more, and keep in touch with my peeps, but the days just seem to slip by, and none of those things have happened. Ok, time to stop complaining about it. That's not going to help. I don't know what IS going to help, but that's not it.
Gee, aren't you glad I posted all that crap?
posted by amandak @ 3:59 PM
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9 Comments:
First of all, I DO love that you posted all that.
Secondly, I understand this hermit thing very well. I have been struggling with it for a few months now myself. Why do you think you have to be "social", or have to "connect"? I mean I know you want to, but there's a reason you're "hermitting" for lack of a better phrase.
In the craniosacral world, inertia is an interesting concept. You find what are called "fulcrums" of inertial energy. Instead of fighting them and trying to "work them out" in any physical way, they are best addressed, by going into the silence, the stillness, the lack of movement. By going into the "lack of motion", the "inertia", the body is able to address the underlying energy. They call it dynamic stillness.
I just find the craniosacral paradigm a nice parallel to what you describe.
Take care sweetie, I hope you're feeling better. We need to do that video yoga test thing soon.
I am in the same place. I never would have would have thought of the word inertia, but it fits my situation perfectly. I just keep on keeping on and I don't get done the things that really should get done. I hope that we figure this out soon, huh?
yeah, I'm glad you posted that.
sometimes, I find the best way to get out of that kind of rut where I'm not doing anything or talking to anyone is to give in to it. do absolutely nothing without apology, for however long it takes to then have energy to do something. is that the fulcrum of energy stine was talking about? it sounds much nicer that way.
I just miss you. A lot.
Gee, aren't you glad I posted all that crap?
Yup. Makes me think that I'm not alone when I go through the same.
I'm just glad you posted. And it's not crap, it's something that everyone experiences at one time ot another. I love you and I miss you.
I'm glad you posted too. I totally empathize with your inertia. It happens to us all. Especially at this time of year. You'll pull yourself out of it eventually, but until then give yourself a break for feeling how you feel.
I think your fear of intertia--like my own--is a function of that American obsession with DOING, with ACCOMPLISHING. BEING is not a vice, darling. Listen to the whispers that haunt, not the whispers that taunt.
speaking of inertia, young lady, how about a post?
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